Being fired from a hit reality TV show can make one learn a lesson or two.
Kristen Doute, one of four of cast members of "Vanderpump Rules" fired for racist acts, says she is learning to "shut up and listen."
In June, she and co-star Stassi Schroeder were fired by Bravo for previously calling the police to identify former black co-star Faith Stowers as a thief.
The disgraced reality TV star opened about her self-reflection on Wednesday’s episode of the “Hollywood Raw” podcast hosted Dax Holt and Adam Glyn.
“I started listening, because I was having conversations with a lot of my friends, specifically — to be honest — my black friends, and they told me to shut up and listen. And that’s exactly what I did,” she said.
She admitted that the weeks following the firing were "really emotional."
“I wasn’t doing that well,” Doute said. “I think I was just really all over the place. I’m not used to being silenced, and it was a lot to take in that people had a certain perception of me that I didn’t hold myself. And sprinkled in there was, like, drinking and crying, to begin with, you know, if I’m going to be super honest about it.”
The 37-year-old entrepreneur revealed she has been educating herself by calling her friends, listening to resources, reading, and watching Ted Talks in order to "understand everything that was going on around me, rather than what happened to me regarding my job."
She added, “the world is bigger than just me.”
Doute did, however, criticized the network for not filming the firings, which she said could encourage people to have “difficult conversations.”
“I think that it would have been a lot smarter for them to film about this,” the Dearborn, Mich., native shared. “I think that this was a perfectly wide-open door for Bravo to take the initiative and have this conversation.”
“I think there was something better, something smarter they could have done rather than passing along the ‘you’re off of the show note’ to my attorney like the game of telephone,” Doute added. “I think it would have helped me.”
The former Bravolebrity revealed that no one from “Vanderpump Rules” has contacted her since the public firing.